Thirty, Dirty, & Dying: From the Journals of a Raging Bipolar Alcoholic by Sabrina Rose

Straight from the journals of a raging, bipolar alcoholic: Sabrina Rose comes clean about her thirty years of being dirty and dying. Raw. Unflinching. Unapologetically human. Thirty, Dirty, & Dying is the harrowing and healing memoir of a woman who clawed her way through the wreckage of childhood trauma, addiction, and bipolar disorder—and lived to write about it. Told with brutal honesty and piercing clarity, this book is not just a survival story—it’s a reckoning. Raised in the shadow of abuse and silence, Sabrina spent years unraveling in private, hiding pain behind bottles, self-destruction, and the desperate pursuit of control. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder and swallowed by addiction, her life became a chaotic spiral—until she turned thirty and was forced to choose between death and something terrifyingly foreign: healing. Threaded throughout the memoir are unfiltered journal entries—raw dispatches from the darkest corners of her mind. These entries reveal the voice of someone fighting for her life in real time, long before recovery had a name. Read more