The Gods Keeper: A Why-Choose Dark Romantasy (The Keeper Series) by M. L. Burns

"You are a monster, Azahara." Happiness feels like a distant memory for Azahara. Back in the Kingdom's shadows and seeking refuge in Ilkiz, she is once again consumed by loss. Her soul may be intact, but it's the only part of her that is. Surrounded by allies, including the man who would move mountains for her, she should feel invincible. Yet, being called a monster by the embodiment of hope makes her feel like the little mouse Goddrick has tried to make her over the past five centuries. But there's no time to dwell on her own trauma. Jaakobai is plotting something dark, and only Azahara can stop him. To succeed, she must forge alliances with those who once tortured and imprisoned her, discover a way to kill a god, save someone she loves, and somehow find a path to healing. Healing... if that's even possible.